life is complicated. i actually like it that way, but sometimes i can get overwhelmed by everything going on and end up unable to focus on anything. i am constantly pushing myself in different areas of growth but find myself actually being too hard on myself and putting myself in too many challenging situations at one time, causing near nervous break-downs. i know that i am an intense person and some days things are so intense that i can barely stand, so i just sit. but then sometimes i am high as a kite and life is amazing and even though its hard i am so optimistic. i dont like how my mood can change so easily on a whim, but i guess that is what makes me me, so i guess i cant complain too much. i do like myself but could live without 50% of the drama (mostly in my own head)
if only i could be as steady as justin. i am so thankful for him as my husband. i remember running after more complex moody melancholy men and oh my that was the wrong direction. God certainly knew what i needed and made it clear. thanks my love for helping me become the person i am becoming, i owe a lot to your understanding and gentle heart! i would not ever want to be married to myself!! (: