We enjoyed the memorial service for Augustine this past wednesday night with some family and friends. justin and i are both very glad that we decided to do this. it didnt happen till three weeks after his birth, but it actually was good timing for our family emotionally and physically. as you can see he was a very chubby and beautiful boy! I wasnt able to really look at his photos without crying until a few days ago... but now i keep them by my bed and say goodnight to him. i am enjoying this. he was and is still a blessing. here is a poem i wrote within about a week after his birth.

into my arms they placed you so i could love your life,

i will treasure every breath you breathed with me that night.

there was so much purpose in the short time you were allowed

you brought me joy, you brought me peace, in those moments somehow.

but my heart was slowly breaking to watch you while you slept,

i knew that time was ending and you would not wake up.

things were rather peaceful as we saw the setting sun,

fading into the night just as you had gone.

although the tears were dripping as we laid you down to sleep,

we loved you and knew the lord your soul will keep.